Winter Birds
Snow-covered tables in a stone courtyard in a park in the
city. He sips from a thermos, pretending it's tea. She sits across from him,
slim and pale, dressed in yellow, pretending that she believes it's tea, too. Winter
birds step through the slush around them.
He lifts a hand over a piece, thinks twice, puts the gloved
hand back in his lap.
She has more in common with them, the winter birds, than the
geese and robins who flew south. She fluffs her feathers and walks under gray
skies; she has nothing to complain about cold
stone seats and snow on her dark hair that doesn't melt.
She knows she will win this one. Six moves. If he sees it,
he says nothing. Doesn't try to re-bargain. His whiskers are harsh silver
stubble on ruddy skin.
She remembers when they were light brown, fine, the best
beard in the city. How they whispered and tickled against her neck, her
stomach...
He sees it. Plays to the end. Their hands move, back and
forth, until his last piece is removed. She never knocks them over, just takes
them away.
"That is the last game we will play, Gregory
Abut." She waits, but he says nothing in reply. She begins to collect the
pieces.
"No." He stays her hand. "Leave them. Let
whoever comes along next try to figure out how we got here."
So she leaves them, and he stands and comes to her side of
the table and kisses her, like always. He used to taste like Turkish tobacco,
but he gave that up years ago, when his son died. Now he only tastes like gin,
sharp and clear.
He takes the thermos when he goes. He has a limp now, she notices. So many small inconveniences of mortality that she could've fixed, long ago. If it were up to her... Ah, but that is part of the game. They must say aloud they want her to do that for them.
Gregory was seventy-nine; there were no further moves to make. She sighs.
The winter birds want something for their trouble. She
arranges her yellow dress and whispers, "Find me another."
And to a hundred city windows go a hundred birds, and
somewhere in the cold afternoon, they find him.
Is there such a thing as warm sorrow? I think there is here =)
ReplyDeleteI love your winter fics, this one makes me feel safe =)
Safe, yes, god knows we need safe these days. This winter.
Delete*hugs* *hugs* *hugs*