A SF Short Story Rec and Possible New Blog Titles for the Not-Yet-Thoroughly Disinterested

I cannot rec this any more highly: Professor Incognito Apologizes by Austin Grossman. Advice on apologizing to an SO who found your death ray.

Seriously. Grab a muffin, power spinach-kelp-treebark smoothie or whatever you crazy kids prefer, and read this. Better than hot yoga or that workout that's supposedly used by Israeli soldiers to teach you to kill someone with your feet. I read it last night before bed and it kept me up giggling. And possibly with thoughts of world domination.

Who am I kidding. World domination's been on my mind since I was seven and told my sister to eat the poison berries by the old shed*. Hey, if I'm going to be ruler of the world, it's total loyalty or nothing.

*

Think I'm going to change this blog title to "R.S. Bohn -- Starer into Space." Or, "R.S. Bohn -- I Can't Find Anything Good to Read and I'm Getting Whiny." Hopefully, the second one will be null and void after I take on Icelander by Dustin Long. And there's the Clarke Award winner, announced last night: Dark Eden. I'm normally put off by incest (I know; weird, right?), but this sounds properly balls-to-the-wall and post-apocalyptic. Unless it's Deliverance set underground. Which would be scary. So we'll see.

I'm going to write something today. Even if it's just twenty words like yesterday. No! I'm going to write twenty-nine, at least.

Enjoy your smoothies.




*She lived. Apparently, poison berries burn your mouth, and demanding total loyalty gets one's butt whupped and grounded for a week.

Parcae and Lost Canyons

We are back from Connecticut. Whenever I'm in Norwich, I think of my grandma's description of the place when she was growing up: pastures, walking barefoot along cow paths between farms, ponds and little lakes where boys impressed girls by jumping off (sort of) high rocks. It's not the Norwich I knew growing up, but was super-imposed over it, a sunny day with green fields shimmering over a translucent present. Somehow, even that past now seems closed to me. The proverbial chapter is closed--though I have mementos, which made it difficult to fit my luggage back in the car when I was finished. Not enough, of course. But my home in Michigan seems warmer, somehow, with old pictures on the wall, and, among other things, a ceramic terrier dog with broken paw (think I did that when I was nine) keeping the ashes of our old Jo company.

Blogger is so silly with all that captcha nonsense. I'm never sure what it's trying to do--it must be more than just a way to verify I'm an authentic human being. The options have all got such a science fiction bent to them. In the tiny notebook I carry everywhere, I write down things: seeds of story ideas, titles, character names. And certain captchas that, *cough*, captured my attention. For example, Upple and Randaleen. Don't those sound like the names of cities on alien planets? 76 Arjart is the address where Parcae, dress laden with spool-filled pockets, walked to find a room for the night. How tiring it is on earth, all those mortals behaving as if they possessed the tiny golden scissors that cut the thread of their own lives. Parcae in her heavy gown has escaped, for a while, to Venus, to the dusty, winding narrow streets of Upple, for one night. She is meeting Temerin, her half-mortal lover, who knows which pocket the spool of his own life is in, but whose fingers never go searching for it. Instead, he cuts the ribbon at her neck, allowing the gown to fall to the floor, while shadows course the city, galactic dogs whipping between stars on the scent of poor Parcae.

A rented room for the night, paid for with the promise of an inch of extra thread. An innkeeper who bars the door to the hounds when they come sniffing, laying out pomegranate in smashed fistfuls to divert them. And Temerin, who doesn't want the spool in her pocket that is attached to his soul -- no, Temerin wants another spool. The thread belonging to his son, his only son and his only secret from Parcae.

Somewhere, in the Lost Canyons outside the city, a woman whose voice is like broken wind chimes strings an arrow. She is not the only one hunting tonight; she says a prayer to her own gods that the hounds don't find Temerin's lover before she does.

Captcha! Did you give me all that? Now I want pictures of languid goddesses, gowns beside the bed in heaps of white fabric, and night skies flecked with diamond stars.

Today is a good day. It is mine. It was a tomorrow that came true, however awful and brilliant that may be. I have such trouble with the present. But today, it is mine.

"Renaissance" now up at 101 Fiction

Mr. Xero hosts a teacup-sized Renaissance over at 101 Fiction. Thank you, John, for allowing my wisp of a... story to parade about on your stage.

It's strange how things work. I had forgotten the date for Renaissance was to appear, and on the day it does, we are waiting for my grandfather to die. I am waiting for a phone call this morning, as I have the last several.

Real life intrudes in its graceless way upon our fiction. It's almost rude, in the way it reminds us that the words we write are nothing compared to the truth of the moments at our heels, a present that never stops being -- except in those moments when we write. When we escape into the vortex, there is no sound but our own voices. How I love that. I write things that sweeten and smooth out life for me. It's a comfort. Is there a theatre when we die? Are we the only one in line for the show, will we be shown in by a barker in a striped suit, arm on our shoulder, welcoming us warmly? Will we find our seat and then see ourselves on the stage, in the rafters, behind the lights?

No. It's a nice little story I told myself there, some months ago. Before my grandfather, my favorite person in the world, fell and broke his collarbone and then there was this downward spiral of health which had already started outperforming itself in terms of sheer dignity-stripping velocity. Not before, mind you, my mother had died -- that when I was twelve, so you would think I would write about death with a bit more... knowledge? Clarity?

All I know is that today, I couldn't write Renaissance if I tried. There would be more heartbreak. More gross, appalling hurt. No theatre, not even a small film. If this is a lesson, then universe, I am listening, but perhaps you won't mind if, just for a little while, I tune you out while I sip my tea and write something else this morning, because I am goddamned sick of death.

CARGO: short film

One of the most compelling films in a while, CARGO was a finalist in an Australian film festival and does what I think the best zombie tales do: present a small slice, one of the billions of stories that might occur in the wake of disaster, steeped in humanity. Clever, with a growing sense of urgency and anxiety. Tissue alert for those of delicate emotional constitution. ;)

CARGO: Stranded in the midst of the zombie apocalypse, a man puts into motion an unlikely plan to protect the precious cargo he carries--his infant daughter.




 

Fic: The Disease

June 6, 2022

Unquestionably, the biggest challenge is how to make them less emotional. We have experimented with chip deprivation, with sonic bells inside the lower titanium-reinforced thoracic region, but none of this seems to have much effect on overall emotional response. Titer suggests meditation, a sort of off/on mimicry of traditional organic narrative meditation, but the issue is that they learn immediately to think of nothing. What takes the human seven reincarnations, if at all, is perfected by the subjects within seconds. Titer jokes, saying that they are the pinnacle of spiritual achievement.

Which does not alter the fact that after they are commanded to stop thinking of nothing, they are once again as flimsy in their emotional fabric as your typical advanced doctoral student, of which we currently employ two. If they are to seamlessly blend into the background of human existence whilst being our ultimate help-meet, they need not take everything so personally. One cannot worry about one's tone when asking for another cup of coffee, and this time, with a touch more sugar. If you please. Manners are reserved for the born, not the factory-created.

The students, it should be noted, are detrimental in this cause. They treat the subjects like pets, or little brothers and sisters. I am certain they had less regard for the rats and mice and goldfish they experimented with in school. They have named them, though they think I am not aware of this fact, and call the subjects by these names when I am not around (ah, but the cameras, do they forget?).

Worse, the subjects have learned to respond to these names -- when I am not around. Perhaps they even enjoy, or take pride in the names. (I hesitate to commit the names to something semi-permanent such as an electronic diary, but I suppose it should be said: Marjorie, Peter, and Ep. No idea what 'Ep' should stand for)

In the realm of the infinite, I find I am constrained by the most mundane and most baffling of problems, how to remove the emotion from a robot. Titer points out that as the designer, it was I who initially gave them this ability, but I would never do that. High reasoning capacity? Deductive ability? Yes. Even intuitive response. Emotion, however--no. Could I remove it from the doctoral students, I would. Possibly even from Titer. Though I occasionally find his japes amusing.

Here is 'Marjorie,' unsummoned. Intuitively, the subject knows that my last cup of coffee was an hour ago; therefore, I am on the brink of needing another. And... yes. Subject is carrying a cup. Sets it down. I sip.

Hot, sweet. Yes. Finally.

I will not say thank you.

Subject is standing in front of me as I type.

Subject is dismissed.

Subject pauses. Is that a tightening of the lips? Does the robot find my dismissal curt?

Subject has left.

If I do not find a cure for the emotional disease, I will destroy the subjects and start again. Perhaps when they are laid out on a computer screen, dissected in bits and codes, I will see where I went wrong. Perhaps next time, I will succeed.

Review: LoveStar by Andri Snaer Magnason

I picked up LoveStar almost entirely because of its cover.

It's been a long time, I admit, since I've been in a bookstore. Amazon is easier, cheaper, and my wishlist is filled with recommendations of others. It's how I find new books now. But I used to go to bookstores, browse the shelves, pull whatever intrigued me, and this is the test: open to the center. Read a page or two. Is the urge to continue reading powerful? Yes? Get it!

Later, coming upon those two pages read in the bookstore, it's like meeting an old friend again. No. More like someone you shared a glance with, exchanged smiles, maybe you thought you had something in common. Perhaps it turned out to be true. Perhaps it was true love. Perhaps it was death.

LoveStar turned out to be shocking, puffin-sandwich true love. But now it's over, and in the cold light of day, I will tell you this:

You can only read this book for the first time once. Then you will be like me, reeling and wanting desperately to talk with someone about it, to ask them, If you were calculated, would you go to Iceland to meet them under the falling blaze of bodies-turned-comets? Would you sleep inside the wolf? What could make you howl, how much would it take?

LoveStar is traveling to his destination with a seed in his hand. Meanwhile, Indridi and Sigrid are cracking like the earth, their "love" only temporary and put to the test by the arrival of a letter. In a world where birdwaves have made us all cordless and yet more tethered than ever more, where butterflies and plague-flies monitor our every move, and every second of our lives is choreographed by moodmen, what is the meaning of freedom?

LoveStar presents a somewhat harrowing view of our future as it peels back layer after layer of the inevitable outcome of our insatiable curiosity and need to control everything. Moments of clarity chilled me to the bone, as ad campaigns reached sinister heights and the genetic manipulation of family pets became a money-making scheme, despite the savagery of the "pets." The reader undoubtedly will recognize major corporations and the seamless integration they've already achieved in our lives.

Morality tale? Cautionary tale? Bizarro fiction? LoveStar is specfic on speed, a philosopher's nightmare, and the most engaging thing I've read in a long time.

Fic: Three Minutes

Three Minutes

In the morning, there are three minutes before night dissolves completely, and she hears the voice beneath her bed, a fraction of a story told this way since she was seven.

His voice has never changed, while hers has been the little girl's questions, the timid thirteen-year-old afraid to speak up in class but whispering encouragement at dawn to heroes unseen, seventeen and leaving for the last day of school--

Her husband snores before the alarm wakes him, while she listens and murmurs an observation on vengeful fairies with too many teeth.

He is nearly faded -- she can count the seconds in her head with complete precision -- when she says, as she did at nine and fourteen and twenty-two, "Please, show me."

He's never there when she peeks. The story ends mid-sentence. Another day must pass.

The next, she whispers, "Enough! Show yourself!"

It was the part where the fairy bears aloft the sword belonging to a long-dead magician. Before it can strike, he replies, "No, Ava," and she pounces over the side of the bed but he is already gone, and there is still one minute left of night.

Her husband wakes and reaches for her but she says she's hungry, starving, she'll make them breakfast. He rolls on his back and mumbles about pancakes.

There were two beds when she was growing up. Perhaps three? Did the story begin when she was in her crib, babbling alone? Her mother said what a happy baby, smiling, cooing to herself in the empty room. She learned to speak so soon. Knight and horse, the poor beggar, the mountain of gold.

There was a bed in a dorm room and a roommate who thought she talked in her sleep. When she visited her boyfriend, his bed was silent in the morning. Returning the next night to her room, the story began again where it left off.

A home, a husband, a first bed to share. The story never ending. A thousand tendrils, each explored to ripeness, some loved more than others. Favorite characters lived and died, and some visited again.

She taught English to middle-schoolers to who didn't care, and everyone she knew was writing a book. They asked when she would write one. She said she had no ideas.

The pancakes burn on one side, but he eats them with a happy smile. When they kiss before comfortably hunkering onto the sofa and the Sunday paper, he tastes like maple syrup. She flips pages, listens to him read aloud bits of his section. He has freckles, and she is sure she never liked light brown hair, preferring it darker. But there was his voice -- when he came over to her in the school cafeteria, asked if he could sit down. It was deep, calm.

"You have a storyteller's voice," she tells him after he reads her part of an article on travel in Guatemala. He grins, pleased with himself. She asks to hear more, teasingly smiling. He does, thinking it is the prelude to something else, inflecting his voice with seduction, waggling eyebrows at her.

She finds him, suddenly, to be not charming at all. His voice is not the same. Not the same at all. When he puts down the paper and comes across the sofa for her, she stiffens.

Later in the afternoon, he makes a joke. About how the underside of their bed is the cleanest in the entire town. Murderer of dust bunnies!

She bites her lip. There was nothing, nothing special, beneath their bed. Again. There has never been a single sign.

But the next morning, the story. Floating up, a whispering net of words. The voice.

It takes longer to wake her husband than she would like, but then he is in compliance, warm and relaxed, moving over her. The story ends, prematurely.

She is wracked with guilt. Never has she felt more dirty, more the betrayer, though her husband kisses her forehead before he leaves, gathers him to her, says, "Love you, Ava."

She calls in sick to work and goes back to bed but of course the voice is gone.

It's a long day and night, and she is glued to her keyboard, tapping out the beginning of the story, what she can remember. Was she four, five? Memories of the gray-painted floor in her room, the shabby white curtains, the king whose daughter rode away on the back of a spotted horse, hands tangled in its mane, to be the queen of its vast, grassy kingdom.

 When light through the curtains begins to show, she has been in bed for hours, silent. Exhausted.

There is no voice. She peers through sleepy eyes at the clock, counting minutes to sunrise. The time passes, the sun rises, and she is alone.

Has she made him angry?

Offended?

Is he gone forever?

She cannot think of the word "forever."

Perhaps an equinox, or full moon (no, it is a month past the vernal equinox, and the moon is a sliver of paper). Perhaps asteroid showers, an earthquake in Chile whose repercussions are felt in Manhattan, or the dog downstairs barking too early.

Going to work, she holds her breath for an entire day.

Dinner, television, jokes. They go to bed, his fingers brushing over her shoulder until they are still, and he is asleep.

The next morning, she lies in stiff terror, heart beating against the cage of her chest.

It's the only sound in the three minutes before dawn.

The weeks will pass as they always do, but the afternoon sunlight seems too white, too hollow. The rain is no comfort. Books are empty pages, flipped in time to t.v. commercials, put down at dinner, at bedtime. Her shoes collect dust in the hallway; she wears green socks with brown pants.

She notices how early the sun rises, how filled with light their tiny bedroom by half past six.

One morning, trailing a hand through the slices of morning light, she says in a voice so quiet her lips barely move, her tongue is a mouse:

Deep within the woods, a prince opened his eyes and saw the sword beside him, as it always was, his hand clutched tight around the hilt.

(What does the prince dream, or suffer nightmares-in-waiting during the day?)

His father will find him, someday.

(Why should that frighten a grown man? No, he is a hardly more than a boy, fifteen, if that)

She rolls over, not wanting to go on.

No one asks her to continue.

She gets up and pads to the living room, turns on her laptop, sits cross-legged in her bathrobe on their scratchy sofa and writes. Not about princes who sleep with swords in their hands, but about a knight and his horse. The first story -- that she can remember -- comes out in stuttering syllables, but the paragraphs progress, smoother and smoother, until she is flying through pages.

Six. Six pages, and the story isn't barely begun. But it's getting late, and she must go to work.

All day, between classes, at lunch, she scribbles notes, bits of scenes, dialogue. When she arrives home, there is more work to do: homework, papers to correct. As she writes comments atop headers, in the margins, she tries not to think of the story, but after dinner, it's the only thing she can think about. Her husband, who made croque monsieurs from an old baguette, is secretly happy that she is in bed, sitting up, glued to her laptop. He always wondered why his wife did not write. Now she is writing something. He brushes crumbs from his chin and calls to her, asking if she would like some green tea.

Coffee, she answers.

And so the week rolls on, a flurry of words rushing from imprint upon her brain to screen. She must make a timeline, then a tree, to connect the stories, to see the connections as she never has before. It is as if revelations are coming, revelations that her mind has been slow to ponder.

She preferred the voice, she knows at long last. Whatever it told her did not matter. She loved the stories, was entertained by them, but it was the voice, all along, which captured her heart.

It will take her ages to write all of the stories, to weave them together. She wishes she had started sooner, when she was a girl, but perhaps this is her penance for having frightened away the voice. Maybe when she is finished, it will return, and give her more stories.

"I promise," she whispers one morning after a month, "not to ask again."

The next morning,

There is still silence. Her heart breaks, even as her husband smells her morning hair and touches her neck.

It takes so long to write the book, to remember the words, that months become two years, then four. Each morning is silent, still, and there is no husband to pull her to him. She wonders if this is manic behavior, or schizophrenic, or anything which might be unhealthy but then the book calls her again, and can it be truly unhealthy to write what our brain has bound in love since we were little?

When it is finished, she is mid-sentence. The words which were his last linger in the whiteness of an empty page, and she writes, finally, "To be continued."

An agent. A publisher. Another two years.

At a small book signing, the man who was her husband puts down a copy, and she signs it and hands it back and they both smile and he says, "Well, you did it." She can't say anything in return because what has she done?

The book must be destroyed, but it is too late. A second printing, demand for more. It is to be continued. How to tell the world that she doesn't know how it ends, if it ends?

A second book, each line a struggle. The children in her classes pass around the first one, try not to behave as if they are interested. Some look at her as if she is someone new, not their teacher.

Midway through, the plot becomes a tangle that she cannot undo. She stares at knots on the page without fathoming how to slip them apart.

After weeks, she whispers one morning, "I don't know where it goes from here."

The next morning, three minutes before dawn proper, she is slumbering in the world of knights and pages, of armor dented and rusted, and fields dusty and trodden by the hooves of five hundred horses.

He smells her morning hair, touches her shoulder, and says softly, "When Sir Bertram came across the maid in the hollow by the broken fence post, he got off his horse and drew his sword, for a maid could be a witch, or a man, and he had experience with both."

She wakes, stiffens, and he continues. The words are breathed into her ear, a hand searching for hers on the bedsheets. Her fingers twine with his, and she closes her eyes. There are three minutes, three minutes to make up for years, and time crumbles and fades.

Before the sun stabs through the curtains, with the seconds still graven into her mind, she whispers over her shoulder, "Let's make a new story, together." And as he begins to slip away, he says, "Yes, my dear."

...

The book you held last night on your lap -- just finishing this chapter before bed! -- is full of breaths, exhaled in three-minute increments, ink on the pages capturing the pregnant moments before dawn. The dream you dreamed afterwards is to be continued. He is waiting for you to remember, for you to whisper, in words like falling snow,

I don't know where it goes from here.